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[Thursday
August 10th, 2017
1:59pm
]
baconpringles44
01. Whats your name?: Abbey
02. Age, Birthday?: 16, June 8
03. Why do you cut?: To "reset" my emotions and get my head level again; to feel better; because I like it
04. When was your first time? December 2014, to try to stop my friend from cutting
05. What did you use?: Pencil sharpener
06. Where do you most often cut?: Hips
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: Bedroom, occasionally bathroom
08. What do you use?: Razors, utility knife or pencil sharpener
09. Do you hide it?: Only the ones my family don't already know about
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: Most of the time
11. Anyone know?: Only my girlfriend knows about the recent cutting, all my family and friends know about the past cutting
12. Eating Disorders?: No
13. Mental Disorders?: Major Depression, bipolar, social anxiety
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Hug them, try to talk to them about it
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"Hush" [Monday
August 7th, 2017
2:17pm
]
bluesunset123
I don't like my actions, I don't like my words, I don't like interacting with others. But when I hide, when I'm alone, when I stay oh so very quiet for too long. I yearn for it...

Let me talk.
Let me move.
Let me get to know you.

This is fun.

I'm having fun.

Fun.



...


But wait...

I don't like you looking at me that way.

Am I dumb? Do you think I am an idiot?

Stop it.

I'll play pretend that I'm ok. But-

Stop it-

Stop looking at me that way, stop talking about me.

I don't like it.

I want to be invisible.

Is this a joke? Are you just having fun?

Am I over thinking this?

I'm feeling paranoid.

I'm feeling anxious.

Do you hate me? Do you pity me? What do I do?

Everyone is looking at me that way now. They think I'm dumb, they think I'm useless.

I'm so anxious....

I want to just drop dead.

My words-

How do I shut up? How do I make you stop talking?

It's not fun anymore...

Why did I open my mouth? Why did I speak? I shouldn't have- I need to be quiet. Just sit here and look pretty, don't say anything.

Please close your eyes. Don't look at what I'm about to do. You hate this, the blade.

But I need it, I can't take this-

Shhh...

I've said too much.
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"What Happened in my Head" [Tuesday
August 1st, 2017
10:32pm
]
bluesunset123
I can be happy without a care in the world, like nothing can stop me. Allowing my ambitions, passions and excitement to take over-making the future look so bright, I think I might go blind.

...

But then...all I can want-all I can wish for...is to never have existed. My skin itches and aches to be cut, my hands look and reach for anything sharp enough for the job, my eyes and my mind want to see the pretty red blood stream down my arms and legs like I'm  looking at some kind of morbid-beautiful piece of art.

I've been like this for 10 years. Even when I stop, even when I think I can get over it- I slip up. It calls to me, it begs me to come back and no matter how hard I try- I answer.

The feeling of the new wounds burning with pain and endorphins, I can forget everything. Just for a moment... just one small moment to allow me to collect myself so I can push on forward.

Just a moment to feel at peace.

I used to hate the way it made me feel, but now I don't mind it anymore.

That's okay, right?
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New [Tuesday
August 1st, 2017
8:43pm
]
cb1026
01. Whats your name?: casey
02. Age, Birthday?: october 26
03. Form of SI?: cutting
04. Why do you SI?:help deal with life.
05. When was your first time? What did you use?: i was 11 and i used a box cutter
06. Where do you most often SI?:my left arm but when i run out of room i switch for awhile
07. In what room/area do you most often SI?:my bedroom sometimes the bathroom
08. What do you use?:mostly razors sometimes really sharp siccors,or glass
09. Do you hide it?: yes
10. Do you listen to music while you SI?: not usually till after
11. Anyone know?: yes my family
12. Eating Disorders?: yes anorexia
13. Mental Disorders?: bipolar
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: try to help them get rid of their pain.
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new member [Tuesday
July 18th, 2017
3:13pm
]

staerk
name: ossi
age: 15
birthday: june 2
why i cut: ironically, its numbing. artistic, actually. sometimes i like to pretend my blood is my pain and circumstance. sometimes i re-open scars as if i were going back the the memories of those cuts.
my first time: its actually kind of funny. id heard of it before, and had gotten in an argument with a family member. i was in the car alone, said fam was elsewhere, and for whatever reason the whole cutting deal crossed my mind. i decided to try it and (our windows had been broken in from an intense storm recently) picked up some glass and tried. failed.
what i used: as said, glass. but since then blades from shaving razors. theyre the sharpest.
where i often cut: on the side of my left calf, on the bone and meat. i can cute deeper there and it bleeds more which i find satisfying. but just recently i switched to my right thigh where ive cut before; its summer and theyd be easier to hide.
what i use: as said, blades from shaving razors
do i hide it: yea. to not hide it would be asking for attention. or atleast for me. ive been outed for cutting before and everyone knows i used to so itd be harder to get away with too.
do i listen to music when i cut?: sometimes
anyone know?: ive told my best friend that i do it on occasion. hes starting to as well.
ED: no
MD: not diagnosed
what i would do if i found cuts on my best friend: well as i said hes starting too, so i wouldnt be surprised. i might as if theyre new.
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New Member [Wednesday
July 12th, 2017
9:19pm
]
el_darling
01. Whats your name?: Lydie
02. Age, Birthday?: 14, 3/8
03. Why do you cut?: Easier to feel physical than mental pain.
04. When was your first time? Year 8
05. What did you use?: Pair of compass, Scissors, Penknife
06. Where do you most often cut?: Forearms
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: Bedroom
08. What do you use?: Penknife
09. Do you hide it?: Depends. at home, no.
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: sometimes
11. Anyone know?: yes
12. Eating Disorders?: binge eating
13. Mental Disorders?: anxiety, depression
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Offer support
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[Sunday
July 9th, 2017
11:41am
]
cloudlost
01. Whats your name?: cloudlost
02. Age, Birthday?: 17
03. Why do you cut?: because I feel like it is the only way to feel something other than the hurt and confusion and self-hate that is driving me insane.
04. When was your first time? when i was 15 (august 2015)
05. What did you use?: razor blade
06. Where do you most often cut?: belly , arms
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: bathroom, bedroom
08. What do you use?: razor blade
09. Do you hide it?: yes
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: sometimes
11. Anyone know?: yes (family and my psychiatrist)
12. Eating Disorders?: no
13. Mental Disorders?: bipolar disorder
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?:
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Triggers? [Saturday
July 8th, 2017
5:50pm
]
dmb102196

Whats are some of your triggers

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[Saturday
July 8th, 2017
6:40pm
]
boringblood
. Whats your name?: alex
02. Age, Birthday?: 18, nov. 18th
03. Why do you cut?: when i hate myself a whole lot, when i can't think of any way to get out my feelings
04. When was your first time? 13
05. What did you use?: razor
06. Where do you most often cut?: Thighs and legs
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: Bedroom
08. What do you use?: razor blade from the razor that i shave with
09. Do you hide it?: Yes
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: it depends
11. Anyone know?: like 2 people i don't talk to anymore
12. Eating Disorders?: used to
13. Mental Disorders?: borderline personality disorder, manic depressive disorder
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: cry alone, but not let them see me
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New Member [Sunday
July 9th, 2017
3:30am
]
puppymuffins
01. Whats your name?: W
02. Age, Birthday?: 16, 23.02
03. Why do you cut?: Distraction, Enjoyment, Self-Loathing, Stress
04. When was your first time? 14
05. What did you use?: box cutter, pencil sharpener razor
06. Where do you most often cut?: Thighs, Arms. Hands, Shins, Shoulders
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: Bedroom
08. What do you use?: Pencil Sharpener Razor
09. Do you hide it?: Yes
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: Nope
11. Anyone know?: Close friends
12. Eating Disorders?: No
13. Mental Disorders?: Clinical Depression, PTSD, (Masochism)
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Work through it together
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New Member [Friday
July 7th, 2017
9:06pm
]
et12
01. Whats your name?: E
02. Age, Birthday?: 22 years old. 12.10.94
03. Why do you cut?: Emotional release
04. When was your first time? 11-12 years old
05. What did you use?: Razor blade
06. Where do you most often cut?: Thighs
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: Bathroom/Bedroom
08. What do you use?: Stanley blades
09. Do you hide it?: Yes
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: Sometimes
11. Anyone know?: One close friend
12. Eating Disorders?: No
13. Mental Disorders?: No
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Unsure
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The feeling [Thursday
June 29th, 2017
11:35pm
]
doublespirit
Hey, seeing as I have no one to talk to about cutting in my daily life, I was wondering what kind of feeling it gives you when you do cut.

For me, there's the pain (which I do like, kinda revs the engine), but then there's this calming bliss afterwards. The process of cleanup and stopping the bleeding has me im a kinda Zen state, where I can't think about anything else. It just leaves so calm and collected, totally at peace.

So, what kind of feeling does it give you all?
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New Member, woo [Thursday
June 29th, 2017
11:06pm
]
doublespirit
01. Whats your name?: Jared

02. Age, Birthday?: I'm 18, born in December.

03. Why do you cut?: For stress mainly, and for when I feel like I need to be punished.

04. When was your first time?: Around 4 months ago.

05. What did you use?: The knife on my multitool.

06. Where do you most often cut?: My forearms, sometimes my face.

07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: My bedroom, and outside if I can find a secluded place.

08. What do you use?: The multitool knife.

09. Do you hide it?: Yes, with a longsleeve shirt.

10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: Occasionally. When I do, I'll cut to the beat.

11. Anyone know?: My circle of close friends.

12. Eating Disorders?: Not that I'm aware of.

13. Mental Disorders?: Moderate to severe depression, does masochism count anymore?

14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Don't have one, but I'd want to talk with them, let them know they're not alone.
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New Member [Friday
June 23rd, 2017
10:48pm
]
fallenkilljoy4
01. Whats your name?: Ray

02. Age, Birthday?: 14, March 17th

03. Why do you cut?: to feel something, relieve stress

04. When was your first time?: August 2013

05. What did you use?: a mockingjay pin

06. Where do you most often cut?: my thighs

07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: my bedroom or the bathroom

08. What do you use?: pencil sharpener blade

09. Do you hide it?: yes

10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: sometimes, mostly All That I've Got by The Used

11. Anyone know?: my parents, a few friends, and my boyfriend

12. Eating Disorders?: anorexia

13. Mental Disorders?: Tourettes Syndrome, OCD, depression, anxiety, autism

14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: I'd probably wait until they were ready to talk about it
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New Member [Tuesday
June 20th, 2017
5:44pm
]
surreallife420
01. Whats your name?: Dannie
02. Age, Birthday?: 28, July 26
03. Why do you cut?: Because it is the most efficient coping skill I have found.
04. When was your first time? 13
05. What did you use?: Pocket knife
06. Where do you most often cut?: Left shoulder/forearm is my favorite, but for privacy purposes, I cut most frequently on my thigh.
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: Bathroom.
08. What do you use?: Razor blade.
09. Do you hide it?: Yes.
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: It has never really been a conscious decision, but in retrospect, I am usually listening to music.
11. Anyone know?: People know I have scars, but that is all they know.
12. Eating Disorders?: Negative.
13. Mental Disorders?: Ha. Most likely.
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Whatever keeps them going...
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Advice??? [Monday
June 19th, 2017
4:29pm
]

illyria_lily
So I've been clear of cutting for about a year, but I still SI, mostly biting, scratching, starving and interfering with the healing process when I'm wounded.I want to get back into cutting, because it feels so good and it makes me happy, but I have two main problems. 1) being that my mom is very protective and I can't wear bracelets all of the time, and 2)I have a rare disease so I have lots of doctors, when they do examinations, they'll end up seeing the marks. Does anyone have any advice? I'll take almost anything I can get.
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Introducing myself [Monday
June 19th, 2017
12:06am
]

illyria_lily
01. Whats your name?: Lily
02. Age, Birthday?: 15, Sept 18
03. Why do you cut?: Control over something in my life, depression
04. When was your first time? March of 2015
05. What did you use?: Glass shard
06. Where do you most often cut?: wrist
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: shower
08. What do you use?: Glass shards, pencil blades, box razors
09. Do you hide it?: Until my last breath
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: No, but I hum or sing sometimes
11. Anyone know?: No will ever know if I have any say
12. Eating Disorders?: Bulimic
13. Mental Disorders?: Asperger, depression, anxiety
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?:I know that taking things away wouldn't do any good, so I'd try to be her counselor.
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Random Question [Monday
June 12th, 2017
6:10pm
]
problemsleuth9
I'm not anorexic, but I haven't had food or water for 19 hours now and I don't plan on eating.
Does any experienced person know how long I can safely do this for?

Bonus: Did anyone go to Metallica last night, and if so are your ears still ringing because mine are.
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New Member [Monday
June 12th, 2017
5:47pm
]
problemsleuth9
01. Whats your name?: Jonathan
02. Age, Birthday?: 18, April 1st
03. Why do you cut?: depression, addicted
04. When was your first time? 6th or 7th grade
05. What did you use?: Pocket Knife
06. Where do you most often cut?: Legs and thighs, However I cut on my arms in Junior High
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: Bathroom/Bedroom
08. What do you use?: Pocket Knife
09. Do you hide it?: Yes
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: No
11. Anyone know?: My mother, but she hasn't suspected anything for years
12. Eating Disorders?: None diagnosed
13. Mental Disorders?: None diagnosed
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Tell his girlfriend about it. I don't want him mad at me.
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Awkward [Friday
June 9th, 2017
11:00am
]
dmb102196

I forgot my shaving razor at home so i had to use the stanley razor blade I use for cutting to shave with it wasnt very sharp so it took a bit of time but at least my face looks good. Just a nother reason to always carry a blade

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