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I Cut [Friday
September 22nd, 2017
10:52pm
]

skycares22
01. Whats your name?: Caroline
02. Age, Birthday?: December 5, 2004
03. Why do you cut?: I'm not completely sure. Just my body self-destructing around me seems appealing. I hate myself, I want to punish myself. I want others to see how much I am hurting. I
04. When was your first time? I was 10. I was hiding in my closet, it was small cuts. They started bleeding and I was happy. I thought they were so beautiful. I liked the pain, i like hurting. I haven't stopped since then.
05. What did you use?: A razor, it was my mother's. I stole it.
06. Where do you most often cut?: I mostly cut on my thighs, but I prefer my wrists and feet.
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: in the bathroom. It's easier to clean up there and if someone comes into my room I'll have an excuse.
08. What do you use?: I use razors, razor blades, and pencil sharper blades if I need to get creative.
09. Do you hide it?: Yes, no one will ask questions that way.
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: No. I'm too afraid someone will come into the room and catch me because I can't hear them coming up the stairs.
11. Anyone know?: my mother found out because she found my supplies, my sister saw my cuts by accident, I told my (only) internet friend. She has simple problems
12. Eating disorders?: I try to starve myself because I hate the way I look. But, not really.
13. Mental disorders?: I haven't been officially diagnosed, but my therapist says I'm showing signs of depression.
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: I would ask if they were alright. If they were just starting I'd tell them to stop. If they were like me, us, I'd ask them to cut with me.
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PLEASE answer! [Friday
September 22nd, 2017
10:49pm
]

skycares22
Does anyone have any tips or advice for hiding self harm when changing for PE? I sneak into stalls so no one will see any bandages or scars. But, I recently got caught and I'm afraid to do it again. I wear longer shirts and tank tops to try and hide most of my areas. But, you can only do so much.

Advice on hiding cuts/scars in general would also be appreciated, thanks.
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Friday, September 22, 2017 [Friday
September 22nd, 2017
10:44pm
]

skycares22
Today I have decided I'm going to start starving myself. I will become thinner and prettier, it will hurt me. I want to watch myself crash and burn.

I haven't cut in two days. That's pretty good. I have razors packed in my book bag in case I get the urge in school. I have some hidden in my pencil sharpener at home too. My family left me in the house alone. I decided to use this time as a way to search for sleeping pills and sharp objects. My mother is going to take me back to therpay soon, I can tell. I don't want help. I may need help but I don't want any.

Today Rielly seemed to be annoyed or angry with me. I can't tell. I, hurting evertime I feel her eyes gaze at me. She is one of the only people I know from my real like I still talk to. Maybe if I lose her I will have the courage to finally just kill my self. It will take list of planning though, I want to go out with a bang..
Maybe I'll disappear during school hours and they'll find my corpse in the woods next to my school. Maybe then people will wish they talked to me. Maybe they won't even find my body, I'll just rot away there forever with bugs eating me away slowly. Maybe, after I'm dead, I'll feel my flesh slowly rotting away from my body. Part of me wants that. I want to feel something when I die. Then I'll just die feeling nothing at all, I want a painful death please. I want to bleed out in the streets or jump off the roof of my school. It doesn't matter if it's painful, otherwise dying won't be worth it.

Yesterday I watched everyone around me living their lives. I wonder how they feel. I wonder if anyone in my class feels the same. Maybe I can find someone who does. We can either die together or pull eachother back up. Even if I live, I still won't ever be 'alive'. I'll always be a nobody, someone who is so worthless people don't even bother noticing me. If I die at least I'll be remembered for a while. I want to stop thinking. I want to stop feeling. I want to stop living.
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[Monday
September 18th, 2017
4:42pm
]

aliiceex
[ mood | numb ]

01. Whats your name?: Alice
02. Age, Birthday?: 14, 15th July
03. Why do you cut?: Self hate, release
04. When was your first time? I was about 10-11
05. What did you use?: A razorblade
06. Where do you most often cut?: My arm or hip, sometimes ankles but rarely
07. In what room/area do you most often cut? My bedroom
08. What do you use?: Razorblades
09. Do you hide it?: Yes, unless its semi-faded scars.
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: Every time.
11. Anyone know?: Yeah
12. Eating Disorders?: Could be developing one, not very successfully
13. Mental Disorders?: Borderline Personality Disorder, Anxiety
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Ask them about it, tell them about myself

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icut [Saturday
September 16th, 2017
8:23pm
]
taztheman
01. Whats your name?: sean
02. Age, Birthday?: 27 nov
03. Why do you cut?: depression and when i am manic
04. When was your first time? 12
05. What did you use?: razor blade
06. Where do you most often cut?: left arm
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: bedroom
08. What do you use?: pocket knife
09. Do you hide it?: NOPE because i dont care anymore
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: yes
11. Anyone know?: any body that knows what cutting looks like
12. Eating Disorders?: yes
13. Mental Disorders?: bipolar with psychotic features anxiey and panic attacks
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: i dont have any friends but if i did i would make sure they're using clean tools
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Hello [Monday
September 11th, 2017
8:57pm
]
angelaz17
01. Whats your name?: Angela

02. Age, Birthday?: Im 19, born 16th August

03. Why do you cut?: Because i cant kill myself and it distracts me from thinking about it, and everything else

04. When was your first time?: I was somewhere between 12/13

05. What did you use?: pencil sharpener, took me ages to get it out of the plastic lmao

06. Where do you most often cut?: I used to cut only my legs, top to bottom, once that got covered i moved onto arms, when i fill up my arms i go back to legs ect

07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: Bedroom, i prefer sitting in the bathroom though

08. What do you use?: Shaving Razors, looking to buy some sharper ones atm

09. Do you hide it?: Always, i used to tell my bf but he doesn't know anymore

10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: Sometimes

11. Anyone know?: In the past all my friends nowadays no

12. Eating Disorders?: No but I do slip into some serious purging/starving if i dont want to cut but cant handle whats going on around me

13. Mental Disorders?: Nothing diagnosed but if i had to say what i think i have, Probs depression maybe anxiety

14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: all my friends used to cut it fucked me up hard i used to help them look after cuts, if they needed any sort of aid id be the one they would go too
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New Addition :) [Sunday
September 10th, 2017
10:06pm
]
itchuskine
01. Whats your name?: Charli
02. Age, Birthday?: 18, September
03. Why do you cut?: Old habits die hard I guess. i like it
04. When was your first time?: I was 12, in the bathroom at school
05. What did you use?: My nails
06. Where do you most often cut?: Thighs, left lower forearm.
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: My Bedroom
08. What do you use?: Razor, Nail Scissors, Nails
09. Do you hide it?: Sometimes
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: Sometimes
11. Anyone know?: Most People
12. Eating Disorders?: Bulimia, Binge.
13. Mental Disorders?: Depression, Anxiety, ADHD.
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: He used to cut, made me feel normal.
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friends [Monday
September 4th, 2017
11:59pm
]
problemsleuth9
Kik me at: TheRealJonathanC if you want to talk.
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Entry [Tuesday
September 5th, 2017
12:13am
]

darkangel316
1. My name is darkangel. I won't release real name.
2. I am currently 16 and my birthday is December 16,2000
3. I cut to help manage my emotions and release the tension. I also really like the blood.
4. My first time was five years ago. I was either 10 or 11.
5. I used a broken piece of glass.
6. Mostly on my inner calf, shoulders and arms.
7. The bathroom or my room.
8. I use an exacto blade or blade from sharpeners.
9. Yes
10. Occasionally.
11. Yes.
12. Anorexia
13. General anxiety, severe depression, ptsd, social anxiety.
14. I would encourage them to stop because I care about them but would also just be there for them and be understanding. Help make sure the cuts are cared for properly as well.
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August 29th [Tuesday
August 29th, 2017
1:46pm
]
bluesunset123
Today I am at a low point, for no reason- I just woke up numb.

Wasn't hungry- Drank water instead of eating.

Did my make up, made myself look nice- Felt nothing.

Went driving, my first time on the freeway! Going to go to the beach with my grandmother-Excited.

...

- Never made it.

Got lost on the road- Was calm.

Finally found my way home- Wanted to cry.

Got inside, went to my bathroom and locked the door- Started crying as soon as I was alone.

I can't show my face like this- I really don't want to talk to or interact with anyone/anything...not even my cats. I just want to be alone today.

Just completely alone.

.....
......
.......
This makes 7 cuts this week.
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hi [Saturday
August 19th, 2017
1:40am
]
mydemonskill
( You are about to view content that may only be appropriate for adults. )
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Triggering messages [Thursday
August 17th, 2017
10:21am
]
studentsarah
Hi
I am just wondering how is a message deemed to be triggering? Your rules state anything triggering must be placed behind a livejournal-cut tag, with a warning), however there are no details about what could be triggering. Please could you clarify?
With Thanks
Sarah.
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[Thursday
August 10th, 2017
1:59pm
]
baconpringles44
01. Whats your name?: Abbey
02. Age, Birthday?: 16, June 8
03. Why do you cut?: To "reset" my emotions and get my head level again; to feel better; because I like it
04. When was your first time? December 2014, to try to stop my friend from cutting
05. What did you use?: Pencil sharpener
06. Where do you most often cut?: Hips
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: Bedroom, occasionally bathroom
08. What do you use?: Razors, utility knife or pencil sharpener
09. Do you hide it?: Only the ones my family don't already know about
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: Most of the time
11. Anyone know?: Only my girlfriend knows about the recent cutting, all my family and friends know about the past cutting
12. Eating Disorders?: No
13. Mental Disorders?: Major Depression, bipolar, social anxiety
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Hug them, try to talk to them about it
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"Hush" [Monday
August 7th, 2017
2:17pm
]
bluesunset123
I don't like my actions, I don't like my words, I don't like interacting with others. But when I hide, when I'm alone, when I stay oh so very quiet for too long. I yearn for it...

Let me talk.
Let me move.
Let me get to know you.

This is fun.

I'm having fun.

Fun.



...


But wait...

I don't like you looking at me that way.

Am I dumb? Do you think I am an idiot?

Stop it.

I'll play pretend that I'm ok. But-

Stop it-

Stop looking at me that way, stop talking about me.

I don't like it.

I want to be invisible.

Is this a joke? Are you just having fun?

Am I over thinking this?

I'm feeling paranoid.

I'm feeling anxious.

Do you hate me? Do you pity me? What do I do?

Everyone is looking at me that way now. They think I'm dumb, they think I'm useless.

I'm so anxious....

I want to just drop dead.

My words-

How do I shut up? How do I make you stop talking?

It's not fun anymore...

Why did I open my mouth? Why did I speak? I shouldn't have- I need to be quiet. Just sit here and look pretty, don't say anything.

Please close your eyes. Don't look at what I'm about to do. You hate this, the blade.

But I need it, I can't take this-

Shhh...

I've said too much.
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"What Happened in my Head" [Tuesday
August 1st, 2017
10:32pm
]
bluesunset123
I can be happy without a care in the world, like nothing can stop me. Allowing my ambitions, passions and excitement to take over-making the future look so bright, I think I might go blind.

...

But then...all I can want-all I can wish for...is to never have existed. My skin itches and aches to be cut, my hands look and reach for anything sharp enough for the job, my eyes and my mind want to see the pretty red blood stream down my arms and legs like I'm  looking at some kind of morbid-beautiful piece of art.

I've been like this for 10 years. Even when I stop, even when I think I can get over it- I slip up. It calls to me, it begs me to come back and no matter how hard I try- I answer.

The feeling of the new wounds burning with pain and endorphins, I can forget everything. Just for a moment... just one small moment to allow me to collect myself so I can push on forward.

Just a moment to feel at peace.

I used to hate the way it made me feel, but now I don't mind it anymore.

That's okay, right?
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New [Tuesday
August 1st, 2017
8:43pm
]
cb1026
01. Whats your name?: casey
02. Age, Birthday?: october 26
03. Form of SI?: cutting
04. Why do you SI?:help deal with life.
05. When was your first time? What did you use?: i was 11 and i used a box cutter
06. Where do you most often SI?:my left arm but when i run out of room i switch for awhile
07. In what room/area do you most often SI?:my bedroom sometimes the bathroom
08. What do you use?:mostly razors sometimes really sharp siccors,or glass
09. Do you hide it?: yes
10. Do you listen to music while you SI?: not usually till after
11. Anyone know?: yes my family
12. Eating Disorders?: yes anorexia
13. Mental Disorders?: bipolar
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: try to help them get rid of their pain.
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new member [Tuesday
July 18th, 2017
3:13pm
]

staerk
name: ossi
age: 15
birthday: june 2
why i cut: ironically, its numbing. artistic, actually. sometimes i like to pretend my blood is my pain and circumstance. sometimes i re-open scars as if i were going back the the memories of those cuts.
my first time: its actually kind of funny. id heard of it before, and had gotten in an argument with a family member. i was in the car alone, said fam was elsewhere, and for whatever reason the whole cutting deal crossed my mind. i decided to try it and (our windows had been broken in from an intense storm recently) picked up some glass and tried. failed.
what i used: as said, glass. but since then blades from shaving razors. theyre the sharpest.
where i often cut: on the side of my left calf, on the bone and meat. i can cute deeper there and it bleeds more which i find satisfying. but just recently i switched to my right thigh where ive cut before; its summer and theyd be easier to hide.
what i use: as said, blades from shaving razors
do i hide it: yea. to not hide it would be asking for attention. or atleast for me. ive been outed for cutting before and everyone knows i used to so itd be harder to get away with too.
do i listen to music when i cut?: sometimes
anyone know?: ive told my best friend that i do it on occasion. hes starting to as well.
ED: no
MD: not diagnosed
what i would do if i found cuts on my best friend: well as i said hes starting too, so i wouldnt be surprised. i might as if theyre new.
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New Member [Wednesday
July 12th, 2017
9:19pm
]
el_darling
01. Whats your name?: Lydie
02. Age, Birthday?: 14, 3/8
03. Why do you cut?: Easier to feel physical than mental pain.
04. When was your first time? Year 8
05. What did you use?: Pair of compass, Scissors, Penknife
06. Where do you most often cut?: Forearms
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: Bedroom
08. What do you use?: Penknife
09. Do you hide it?: Depends. at home, no.
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: sometimes
11. Anyone know?: yes
12. Eating Disorders?: binge eating
13. Mental Disorders?: anxiety, depression
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Offer support
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[Sunday
July 9th, 2017
11:41am
]
cloudlost
01. Whats your name?: cloudlost
02. Age, Birthday?: 17
03. Why do you cut?: because I feel like it is the only way to feel something other than the hurt and confusion and self-hate that is driving me insane.
04. When was your first time? when i was 15 (august 2015)
05. What did you use?: razor blade
06. Where do you most often cut?: belly , arms
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: bathroom, bedroom
08. What do you use?: razor blade
09. Do you hide it?: yes
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: sometimes
11. Anyone know?: yes (family and my psychiatrist)
12. Eating Disorders?: no
13. Mental Disorders?: bipolar disorder
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?:
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Triggers? [Saturday
July 8th, 2017
5:50pm
]
dmb102196

Whats are some of your triggers

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