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New User [Wednesday
April 26th, 2017
6:04pm
]
toobig2bperfect
01. What's your alias?: Aurelia
02. Age, Birthday?: 13 years old, August 16
03. Form of SI?: Cutting
04. Why do you SI?: Stress relief, habit, overwhelming self hatred
05. When was your first time? What did you use?: When I was 12, kitchen knife
06. Where do you most often SI?: Thighs.
07. In what room/area do you most often SI?: Bedroom, Bathroom
08. What do you use?: Pencil sharpener blades, knives, glass.
09. Do you hide it?: Yes
10. Do you listen to music while you SI?: Sometimes
11. Anyone know?: Yes
12. Eating Disorders?: Yes. Ana, and sometimes I purge
13. Mental Disorders?: Anxiety, probably depression though I've never been diagnosed with it
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Talk to them, support them.
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Burning ? [Monday
April 24th, 2017
6:17pm
]

a_girl_in_red
Hey, I know it's not cutting but it's still SI, so do you have any tips concerning burning yourself with a lighter ?
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New.. [Monday
April 24th, 2017
2:27am
]
demonsrun1
[ mood | tired ]

01. Whats your name?: Sydney
02. Age, Birthday?: 16, august 5
03. Why do you cut?: lots of reasons, mostly cause i cant stop and i hate myself
04. When was your first time? when i was 12
05. What did you use?: scissors
06. Where do you most often cut?: thighs, arms, ankles
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: my bedroom, or random places in public if i need it
08. What do you use?: usually a pencil sharpener
09. Do you hide it?: yeah, only if its obvious that its self harm though.
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: sometimes
11. Anyone know?: nope, two people think that im a year clean, and the rest think im 4 years clean. Im not even an hour clean tbh
12. Eating Disorders?: not that i know of
13. Mental Disorders?: yeah but id rather not name them
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: give her ice cream and love

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Cutting deeper [Friday
April 21st, 2017
4:34pm
]
celilided
any tips for cutting deeper coz i can get a few to the fatty tissue but i want to go deeper also does anyone's blood clot reallllly quick?? xox
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[Wednesday
April 19th, 2017
5:13pm
]
linzerr6
Where can I get good blades to cut with?? My pins are getting dull, and they don't do enough for me anymore.
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New [Tuesday
April 18th, 2017
5:25pm
]
linzerr6
So, I'm new here.

01. What's your name?: Lindsey
02. Age, Birthday?: 14 (15 soon), May 2002
03. Why do you cut?: I don't really know, that's the thing. I find it comforting (because I forget about my emotional feelings for awhile) when I'm sad or angry, even when I can't sleep, am bored, or my parents aren't home.
04. When was your first time? November of 2016
05. What did you use?: Pins and shaving razors
06. Where do you most often cut?: My hips, sometimes my legs and ankles (though discretely)
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: My room
08. What do you use?: Pins
09. Do you hide it?: Yes
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: Sometimes
11. Anyone know?: No
12. Eating Disorders?: Idk, I made myself throw up for the first time today, and I've been thinking about not eating for a while, so maybe??
13. Mental Disorders?: No
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Probably be sad that she is feeling similar emotions to mine and talk to her about it.
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Im new [Monday
April 17th, 2017
12:06am
]
almostakilljoy
01. Whats your name?: Rosie Taylor
02. Age, Birthday?:17,13th January
03. Why do you cut?: To stop me from doing something more perminent
04. When was your first time? when i was 11-12 years old
05. What did you use?: a blade from a sharpener
06. Where do you most often cut?: Pretty much everywhere but mostly legs.
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?:bedroom,school dorm.
08. What do you use?: Box cutter
09. Do you hide it?: yes
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: yes, mostly la dispute tbh
11. Anyone know?: yes (yikes lol)
12. Eating Disorders?: nope
13. Mental Disorders?:diagnosed bipolar disorder II, depression (no shit lmao), suicidal thoughts etc..
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: friends?! what are they then?!

Feel free to ask for my social medias/snapchat/kik etc
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A new little cutter [Wednesday
April 12th, 2017
8:14pm
]

a_girl_in_red
Hi, I'm new here. there's been a while I was searching for a pro SI community. And here I am. (Please note that English is not my mother tongue, so I might make some grammatical mistakes ^^)

01. Whats your name?:Lisa
02. Age, Birthday?: 17, born the 12th of april 2000 (yeah basically my birthday's today)
03. Why do you cut?: Because I just feel like a piece of shit so I deserve it
04. When was your first time? My first SI ? I was like, 7 y.o. and for my first cut I was 15
05. What did you use?:I began by hitting my head on heavy books, then I scratched the back of my hands until the skin went off, and then, cutting, with a razor blade.
06. Where do you most often cut?: I used to cut almost everywhere (upper and lower arms, stomach, thights) but now my parents check if I don't cut so I do it on the breasts and hips.
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: the bathroom, or my room at the boarding school.
08. What do you use?: Razor and sharpener blades (and sometimes I hit myself on walls, and I think I'm gonna buy a lighter so I can burn myself)
09. Do you hide it?: Yes
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?:I ALWAYS listen to music ♪♫
11. Anyone know?:My best friend, and my boyfriend.
12. Eating Disorders?: Anorexia and non purging bulimia
13. Mental Disorders?: Bipolar disorder type II, OCD with food, Suicidal thoughts, Anxiety
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: She used to cut and still does it sometimes, and when this happens I feel, like, very bad... and paradoxically I cut a lot more these days.

So, I hope this helped you to get to know me, see you soon !
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help [Thursday
April 13th, 2017
1:51am
]
momentsofdefeat
so i have this issue where i am close to i wanna say 9 months clean
and i fucking hate it.
i was told again and again that once i wasn't a teen anymore the urge would go,
im 22

the only reason i ever stopped was because i love my boyfriend more than anything and i am terrified that he is going to leave me, ive had close to 3 month breaks between each session for around the last two years now and this is longest ive gone
my scars are starting to fade and to be real nothing is more triggering to me than fading scars, i hate it so much.
but i think if he left me i would actually kill myself because he is the only reason i am living (i have never said that to him and never will, i dont want that to be the only reason he stays with me)
(we've been together for 6 years and he always knew i did it,)

this year though
this year has already fucked me over so many times
and i am craving release more than anything in this world, i just wish people would understand.
im not really suicidal and im not hurting anybody but myself
why is it so bad?

why the fuck is it acceptable for people to make themselves sick with alcohol or smokes but a few small cuts on my thighs is straight up the work of the devil or some shit.

im just craving, so badly, and i dont know what the hell to do.
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[Thursday
April 13th, 2017
1:40am
]
momentsofdefeat
i hope im going this right but i really have no idea

01. Whats your name?: Hannah
02. Age, Birthday?: 22 1/10/94
03. Why do you cut?: physical pain is so much easier to deal with and to handle than mental pain, so i think of it as kind of a transfer.
04. When was your first time? Ive been bruising for as long as i can remember to be honest but the cutting started when i was about 12 and the eds around 13
05. What did you use?: a kitchen knife
06. Where do you most often cut?: thighs and occasionally left arm
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: anywhere. when Im active its literally everywhere, friends houses, public bathrooms, at home. when i'm not as active my bedroom
08. What do you use?: used to use kitchen knifes and scissors. now i use craft knifes and razor blades
(helpfull tip, craft blades often come in a carry case about an inch by half an inch, not super sharp but crazy easy to conceal and take with you)
09. Do you hide it?: Yes
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: normally
11. Anyone know?: boyfriend and two best friends, think my siblings know but no conformation
12. Eating Disorders?: not anymore but had ana for 5 years and non purging bulimia for 8 years (i never wanted to stop the bulimia but i got way to sick and had to, i still miss it)
13. Mental Disorders?: diagnosed depression, ptsd and anxiety. i think theres probably something non diagnosed as well though i can just never put my finger on it
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: i would make sure they were doing it safely, and knew how to care for and clean them, and if they ever needed it i would listen and help them stop if they asked.

when i googled this i did not think there would be any communities left and i am so glad that i found this one
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[Wednesday
April 12th, 2017
1:32am
]
frankiispooks
01. Whats your name?: Frankii
02. Age, Birthday?: 30/10/01, 15
03. Why do you cut?: It helps with my anxiety, it makes me feel in control, it is comforting.
04. When was your first time? November 2013
05. What did you use?: Scissors
06. Where do you most often cut?: Wrists/Arms, Thighs, Stomach, Chest, Lower part of my neck and throat
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: Bedroom
08. What do you use?: Razors, Scissors or a small pocket knife
09. Do you hide it?: Yes
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: Most of the tkmr
11. Anyone know?: Girlfriend, Psychiatrist, Parents (unfortunatley) & a couple of close friends who have noticed it.
12. Eating Disorders?: Diagnosed Bulimia
13. Mental Disorders?: Anxiety, Depression, OCD, BDD,
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: I have, and although it means I can talk to someone who really understands, I want them to stop or to get help.
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New here! [Saturday
April 8th, 2017
10:17pm
]
klutzykissy
01. Whats your name?: Crystal
02. Age, Birthday?: 20,1/28/1997
03. Why do you cut?: sexual/physical/mental abuse, anorexia, depression, anxiety
04. When was your first time? 12
05. What did you use?: razors
06. Where do you most often cut?: arms
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: bedroom
08. What do you use?: razors, knives and lighters
09. Do you hide it?: yeah
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: no
11. Anyone know?: counselor, fiance, one friend
12. Eating Disorders?: anorexia, bulimia
13. Mental Disorders?: major depressive disorder, ptsd
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: talk with them about it
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answers [Friday
April 7th, 2017
11:30pm
]
celilided
01. Whats your name?: Cecelliance
02. Age, Birthday?: 16, 03.02.2001
03. Why do you cut?: fun, distraction, to feel something exciting
04. When was your first time? 13
05. What did you use?: my nails
06. Where do you most often cut?: left arm
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: bedroom
08. What do you use?: razors, knives and lighters
09. Do you hide it?: yeh
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: mostly
11. Anyone know?: not anymore
12. Eating Disorders?: idk i want one?
13. Mental Disorders?: people think i'm a psychopath but i just don't feel like others
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: get annoyed coz they told me to stop
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Answers [Friday
April 7th, 2017
11:41am
]
applejacks123
01. Whats your name?: Brianna
02. Age, Birthday?: 20yr olds, 21 in Aug
03. Why do you cut?: Sexual abuse, PTSD, depression, because its the only thing that makes my pain bearable
04. When was your first time?
Middle school probably 11 yrs
05. What did you use?: Scissors the first time
06. Where do you most often cut?: R Thigh
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: Bathroom
08. What do you use?: 1inch Scalpel Sterile
09. Do you hide it?: With jeans when I am out, but not at home
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: Sometimes
11. Anyone know?: Fiance
12. Eating Disorders?: in the past
13. Mental Disorders?: PTSD, and probably a whole lot more
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?:
Ask if they are suicidal and if the answer is no then I am there to just support them.
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Hello again... [Friday
March 31st, 2017
9:59pm
]

laveralianthi
I forgot to do this... pls forgive

01. Whats your name?: Michalina (you can call me Michaela if you want)
02. Age, Birthday?: I'm 16
03. Why do you cut?: Idk anymore, I just cut and hurt myself just to feel real again
04. When was your first time?: about 3/4 years ago
05. What did you use?: old razor blade or compass
06. Where do you most often cut?: my arms and legs on random places, often on thighs
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: bathroom, sometimes bedroom
08. What do you use?: razor blade
09. Do you hide it?: yes
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: yes
11. Anyone know?: my mom and doctor
12. Eating Disorders?: no
13. Mental Disorders?: no
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: I would tell them to get some help
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Vyvanse [Saturday
March 25th, 2017
9:50am
]
suicidal_days
I was diagnosed with ADHD and was given Vyvanse as a medication. It has an appetite suppressant effect. Has anybody else ever taken this? And if so, how much weight did you lose? I have an eating disorder (EDNOS) so I fully plan on abusing this. I wanna get down to at least 98lbs before they force me into rehab again (Which never helped me in the past)
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My blades are so dull :( They don't cut like they used to [Saturday
March 25th, 2017
9:29am
]
suicidal_days
[ mood | angry ]

Originally posted by suicidal_days at My blades are so dull :'(

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I wish this day was over! [Wednesday
March 22nd, 2017
10:22am
]
suicidal_days
[ mood | anxious ]

I really want to go home and cut but I'm still stuck in school and can't leave until the bell. Anybody else ever been in this situation? What can I do to injure myself that wont cause a lot of bleeding, something I can do quickly and quietly and hide easy? I would hit myself, but it makes a loud noise. PLEASE HELP ME!

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[Tuesday
March 21st, 2017
9:45pm
]
ariesbiitch
(no subject)
01. Whats your name?: Madi
02. Age, Birthday?: 16, April 14
03. Why do you cut?: a relief and to punish myself
04. When was your first time? When I was 11
05. What did you use?: sharp plastic
06. Where do you most often cut?: my lower left arm and upper thighs
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: bedroom and bathroom
08. What do you use?: razor blades, pencil sharpener, basically any blades I can get
09. Do you hide it?: yes
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?:
11. Anyone know?: yes my mom, dad, and my close friends
12. Eating Disorders?: anorexia
13. Mental Disorders?: bipolar, anxiety
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: She has them already.

If anyone wants to talk or exchange si pics privately, my snapchat is madz1051
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[Tuesday
March 21st, 2017
6:23pm
]
gingerdropss
01. Whats your name?: Maxi
02. Age, Birthday?: 17 September 13
03. Why do you cut?: a relief and to punish myself
04. When was your first time? november 18th 2016
05. What did you use?: Stanley knife
06. Where do you most often cut?: my lower arm and upper leg
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: bedroom and bathroom
08. What do you use?: razor blades, stanley knife, pencil sharpener
09. Do you hide it?: yes
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: sometimes
11. Anyone know?: yes my mom, sister and some of my friends
12. Eating Disorders?: yes but no idea what
13. Mental Disorders?: depression, ADD, anxiety
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: try talking to them about it.
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